Day 1 (again)

So I am trying this again. No, not trying, I am DOING this again. I am doing this period.

Today was good aside from the minor slip up of eating a French toast stick that was one too many for Liam this morning and the rectangle of chocolate I ate after dinner.

Weighed in at 230.8 (had a baby last year, not an excuse but a possible factor, none the less) Went to the gym this morning and walked for 30 min. Had oatmeal & an apple for breakfast. Strawberries and grapes for an AM snack. 1/2 turkey sandwich with cherry tomatoes for lunch. Almonds for a PM snack and shrimp, mushrooms & onions over brown rice for dinner.

No gym tomorrow but possibly an at home yoga video, trying to take it slow this time and not overwhelm myself and get discouraged and quit.

Off Track

Wow, it's been a while since I've written. I've gotten slightly off track but I'm back and Billy is actually being a part of this with me. So that should help even more!

Days 9, 10, & 11

The weekend was good! I worked hard: Mowed the lawn on Friday night, cleaned and reorganzied my house: lots of running up and down the basement steps, even hauling this HUGE chunk of carpet out of the basement, which was probably way more than I should have handled, in fact Billy was pretty upset that I had done that myself. I feel very strong and powerful after the weekend I had. I'm still in the process of reorganzing and cleaning, so there are many more calories to be burned!

Monday: Was not so good. I had McDonalds for lunch. (This is the embarrassing part, but I promised I would bare all). This is my usual from McDonalds: A Big Mac meal (fries and drink, usually diet coke) and a mcchicken with cheese and extra mayo. I felt like complete crap! I felt like if I threw up I would feel so much better! Never again! I'm done with McDonalds after that experience.

Day 8

Ok! I'm starting over. Billy is going out of town this weekend and I am going to have a "me" weekend! I am going to organize and clean my house, which I think will help me regain a little balance in my life. I am going to mow the lawn and walk Duke and just get back on track. Getting through the weekend making better food choices will also get my week off to a better start.

Today was ok, I didn't eat the way I would have liked to as far as timing goes, but I made decent choices.

Day 7

Weigh In Day: Current: 206 lbs

I did horrible yesterday (Day 7) I ate out for lunch and dinner and they were not healthy choices.

Day 6

I feel like I'm boring. I basically write the same thing everyday. "Today was good blah, blah, blah". So I am going to just lay it all out there.

This morning I over slept, watched too much tv, ended up running late and didn't get to pack a lunch. Panara, here I come! I am so unbelieveably tired I can barely keep my eyes open and I'm grumpy enough that I could probably punch someone in the face and not feel any remorse. I'm feeling crappy after what I ate last night. Not boo hoo, woe is me, I'm failing crappy. Like bloated, water retention, ex-lax is looking like a pretty good idea right now crappy. That's usually what I mean when I say I feel crappy.

Last night when I got home from work I ate 3 granola bars, I was starving! I also ate 5 tacos, they were small, but two of them were covered in fried in grease tortillas. And who knows how much chips, salsa and cheese dip. We didn't eat until like 9:30 either.

Tonight is not going to be any better, we are going out to eat with some friends at HuHot. I don't know if you've ever eaten there but it is amazing, and really only one thing to choose from: Noodles, meat, veggies, all covered in oil and sodium! I say I'm going to be good and all that jazz, but let's be honest people. I am not going to be good, I will make horrible decisions, I will probably eat more than my share of crab rangoon.

Also I didn't go to the gym yesterday and I don't have time to go today, so my day is pretty much shot, but once again: Tomorrow is a new day!

**Disclaimer: I'm not beating myself up, or trying to be a Negative Nancy. I am merely stating facts so that you all can have insight into my journey.

Day 5

I did well today until dinner. We had dinner at Billy's parents house and his step-mom is a super good cook! She makes the best tacos ever! I ate too many and we ate too late. I feel kinda crappy actually.

Tomorrow is another day.